What is love
Having too much music that I want to discuss is not a bad problem to have. It does mean that I am always playing catch up. Recently Melissa Lamm has collaborated on a few tracks, one of which I completely spaced a few months ago and a second that just released this past weekend. They are both superbly crafted tracks which got me to go check out the other artists involved as soon as I was done listening. All the aspects of these tracks really come together to create something truly amazing.
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Even When It Hurts
“I'd fall a million times
Even when it hurts
I'm not myself when I'm with you
And I know I know better but I keep coming back, oh
Loose lips ruin lives and mine find their way to you every time
I find my way to you
Oh I find my way to you”
Love. A vast majority of the posts I have written for nearly five years now have pertained to this subject and yet I have often found things to say which I haven’t before said. That is the case here. When speaking on love I have heard it said that the person who truly loves you has the greatest power to just destroy you both body and soul. Yet somehow that feels good because they know you so well and so deeply that they can do that. I cannot say that I fully understand this and think this advice came from Frank Castle aka The Punisher on a TV show so make of that what you will. I bring this more to show that there are many perspectives when it comes to love and I don’t certainly do not know or understand most of them. I don’t know exactly what I think of this track yet to be honest. This first verse sounds like it might not be the most healthy relationship; to come back even when it hurts and you know it's going to hurt. As I previously stated there are a myriad of different ways you could look at this; love is like that; it is incredibly multi-faceted. I am only one person with a limited perspective.
“When it's late at night
I wanna be wanna be laying by your side
But in the morning I
I miss you, but you don't miss me too
I text, you don't reply
I'm so mad until you change my mind
And I find my way to you
Yeah I find my way to you”
You miss them, they don’t miss you; you aren’t getting the attention you deserve yet you are convinced to come back and presumably this happens again and again. What if at times you are also on the other side of this? I find myself thinking a lot about the parts of this story we aren’t hearing about. I don’t know perhaps you are getting attention and are being more demanding than you realize? Or are just feeling trapped in your current situation? Perspective is key and two people are often going to see the same situation in different ways. Perhaps these different perspectives aren’t being communicated? I sat for a long time just pondering on what all this could mean; it is interesting to think about.
“You call and ask me, are we good?
I'm losing more sleep than I should
But I tell you we're fine
I know you love a good lie (Lie)
And I know it might be my fault too
I'd go up in flames with you
Just to be there beside you oh”
“I know you love a good lie.” This feels like it could be a not so veiled insult or more of a playful dig. Of course it could also be meant in a different way entirely. I am not leaning in any particular direction; it feels like there is a lot of history behind this track that we aren’t getting and I really want to know the part one to this story. This is great song writing; the story told is so intriguing that I want more. I want to fully understand what is going on between these individuals and I don’t even know their names.
“But you'rе the one I want
Even when it hurts to hold on”
“But you're the one I want
Even when it hurts”
The first time around this line includes: “even when it hurts to hold on” then the very last time we hear it, it's changed to “even when it hurts”. It’s as if it is left open so that other words can be added; even when it hurts to let go, even when it hurts to be in love. The list goes on. It creates a beautiful ending to a moving track. There are many complicated emotions expressed in this track and I don’t know how much of it I truly grasped. In spite of the fact that my emotional range is lacking; I thoroughly enjoyed this track.
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“Thought I had your heart
Moving fast like a downtown car
Sped away up the boulevard
Now I'm solo in the dark (oh)”
Sometimes love and relationships can blind you. You can be all in, foot on the gas, feeling good about how everything is going and suddenly realize you are there all alone and the situation is quite different than what you thought. It’s very emotionally jarring experience.
“Better off next time
Better off, better of next time
Better luck next time
Better luck, better luck”
You’ll be better off and have better luck next time. I wonder what the reasoning is behind this? Is it perhaps a way of saying I’ve learned from my mistakes so the future will be better. Or is it an attempt to manifest something better, hoping the next time will be better. Or did things just end up so bad that the only way to go is up? I have no idea if it's supposed to be any of these but I like all of them, I think that each represents an important way to approach life experiences; well aside from the last option I hope that doesn’t come up very often for anyone.
“Dancing on the sidewalk
Floating on air
Smiling so big
In your rearview mirror”
Despite whatever has happened it is important to get into a mindset where you are able not only move on but move forward and most importantly find joy in the next stage of the journey that is your life. Now that can take a variable amount of time to accomplish this yet it is always worth it as it feels good once you make it there.
“All the bad has faded black
But the good nights seem to linger
Like sunsets over Venice
Have it slipping through our fingers
And oh, oh, oh
So sweet till the time is up
Till the good things had enough”
Previously I mentioned learning from past mistakes and what may have gone poorly in a relationship. This part is speaking on looking at what positives you can find. These are the kind of thoughts that come when you are in a good head space and it builds really well on the previous part of the track. You are remembering the good things that happened and that it may have been a good thing that the relationship ended as it had run its course and hopefully both parties were able to take away something positive.
“I'm better off
With better love
I'll have better love next time
Not bitter love, no not at all
I'll have better luck next time”
There were some not so subtle hints before this point that the relationship had possibly soured and gone stale. Here we get what I see as a confirmation. “I'll have better love next time, not bitter love, no not at all.” You will make sure it is better next time because you deserve to have something that is better for you.
